Hi Sue, (taking liberties here assuming this is your name)
What a story of courage. What an ordeal. I understood so much of what you wrote about. What struck me most at first was that my calendar was FULL of what I thought were important appointments, commitments, and things to do. Once I heard the words "you have lung cancer", and they began to outline the surgeries, treatments, rehabilitations, etc., I went home, cancelled all of those silly appointments, commitments and things to do. Nothing seemed important anymore, nothing except of course for the battle.
What you wrote here: I am not able to drive again. I can pick up a laundry basket, sleep through the night, bake, fix a meal and grocery shop alone. There are no promises given with any treatment, but the results of the Xalkori are more than I hoped. I know what it feels like to have your life slipping away. It is truly a miracle to feel alive again. I am struggling a bit trying to find a place for myself in the world again. I had worked full-time for many years, so being home, feeling good, and so much time to fill is a challenge. The rest of the world goes on."
The world does go on. But I believe that even the tiniest things we can do are important in our tiny part of the world. I have not been able to drive for a while, but with time, I've found a lot of things to do at home that are fulfilling. I've picked up a couple of quirky hobbies. Check out this web site. http://www.homemadesimple.com/en-US/Hom ... /Home.aspx
I've never been a crafty type person (still am not) but found some fun stuff to do to make little corners of my home, better little corners of my home. That gives me a great sense of satisfaction! But also remember a laundry basked raised, is someone in your home getting clean clothes. That is important and good.
I almost feel sorry for the people that never had to face life at our level. They rush, rush, rush and can't stop to consider the small things. They are too busy rushing. And yet? If they ever face a diagnosis like ours, they will do what we did, erase that calendar, simple it down, and learn the things that are important. I think the small things are important.
I loved your story. I hope to read more here. Check out the Just For Fun Off Topics, Daily Air here. It's just a place to check and chat up your day a bit. I've made some lovely friends there. I don't get there every day, but do like that forum.
I only live about 65 miles from you. I'm just North of Grand Rapids! So it's nice to meet a fellow Michigander here! I sign my name Judy in MI, because we have another Judy here from Key West, and she signs here name Judy in KW or KW Judy. LOL.
Anyway, welcome. I've taken up gobs of room here. LOL.
Have a good day.