Haven't been on for a couple of months. I finished my whole-head radiation, had an MRI, the tumor was half its original size so they are going to schedule me for gamma knife radiation . I had a CT scan of my chest, abdomen and pelvis, and everything checked out clear. I only have one more chemo to go. Plus I still have to have the original colorectal surgery. It seems never-ending. I want my body back. I'm tired of purple spots from being poked and prodded, tired of dry skin, tired of emotional roller-coasters, tired of people seeming to be tired of me and my cancer, tired of losing my muscles, tired of being tired, and really tired of being alone all day. I'm tired of complaining but I have noone else to complain to except you folks so thank you for letting me cry on your shoulders. I know I can see the light at the end of the tunnel but sometimes I just have to cry.

sayin a prayer for you!! Hang i n there!

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April/03 My Wife Deborah, age 46, diagnosed adenocarcinoma NSCLC
1/20/2006 Admitted to hospital Respiratory distress
1/23/2006 Ran to the light and is waiting for us to be rejoined in the Kingdom Of Heaven Her journey is Over but mine lingers on for Now!!!
4/23/07 DEb is joined in Peace by her Puppy Dawg Daisy from Cancer
8/30/07 Got new Pup named Mocha!!

"No matter hnow much it hurts, No matter how alone you feel, Your friends will help you get through anything!!"
Scrubs!!!!Yes the comedy show!!!

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My memory-of Link is good to go now if you want to see it!!

Sending lots of encouraging thoughts and prayers. Vent away, anytime anyday, we are here for you.

Please keep us posted,
Hugs

We get it -- vent away. My husband used to say he was so sick of being sick.

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Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.
John Lennon

"Never, never, never give up." Winston Churchill

"I rang for ice, but this is ridiculous." -Madeline Talmadge-Astor, as she was being helped off the Titanic

"Losing love is like a window in your heart, everybody sees you're blown apart, everybody sees the wind blow". Paul Simon

Husband John has NSCLC-Vena Cava Syndrome Stage 3B, Dx 6/02
Carbo/Taxol,Radiation
Taxotere
Gemzar
Iressa started 3/03
10/03 Stable CT scan
1/04 CT Still stable.
3/04 PET Scan, Still stable.
7/04 Still stable
1/05 Still stable
1/30/05 Iressa discontinued Started Tarceva, still stable 7/05
1/06 Slight increase in tumor, stopping Tarceva.
1/27/06 Started Alimta
5/5/06 Avastin added to Alimta
6/14/06 Stable, continue w/ Avastin
1/29/07 Shrinkage! Continue w/ Avasin.
7/07- Something new on the CT scan, doing a bronc 7/25/07 to see what it is. 8/21/07 begins brachytherapy. Next treatment postponed until 9/6/7 due to an infection which is making him too ill for the procedure. 9/13/07 Diagnosed with Aspergillus. Has brachytherapy 9/20/07. Developed a pericardial effusion, 10/30/07 has a pericardial window to drain the fluid. Procedure goes well but he passes away 10/31/07 due to a pulmonary hemorrhage.
Pic is me and daughter Jillian aka The Jillinator.
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