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Jan 09 husband diagnosed with stage 3 adenocarcinoma.
Oct 09 passed peacefully at home after enduring a very difficult battle. I miss him dearly.

be here when you get back.

what happened just now!?? is everything ok???

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April/03 My Wife Deborah, age 46, diagnosed adenocarcinoma NSCLC
1/20/2006 Admitted to hospital Respiratory distress
1/23/2006 Ran to the light and is waiting for us to be rejoined in the Kingdom Of Heaven Her journey is Over but mine lingers on for Now!!!
4/23/07 DEb is joined in Peace by her Puppy Dawg Daisy from Cancer
8/30/07 Got new Pup named Mocha!!

"No matter hnow much it hurts, No matter how alone you feel, Your friends will help you get through anything!!"
Scrubs!!!!Yes the comedy show!!!

The Reason I advocate
If you would like to see our family photos Click on this link!
http://deborah-wallin.memory-of.com/

My memory-of Link is good to go now if you want to see it!!

why deleted???????????????????

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Jan 09 husband diagnosed with stage 3 adenocarcinoma.
Oct 09 passed peacefully at home after enduring a very difficult battle. I miss him dearly.

Michelle, are you saying you didn't edit your 11/17/2009 post later that same day to change whatever was there to "deleted"? This is very puzzling, because if a moderator deleted a post for some reason (can't imagine why that would be done in your case), the post would just disappear. They would have to "edit" your post and delete the existing text and type in "deleted" for it to turn out the way it did, and why anyone would do that is beyond me. I looked in the Administration Control Panel which moderators have access to, but the log doesn't go back that far. Maybe you could send Katie a PM to see if she has an idea what happened. Aloha,

Ned

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Ned is just my nickname, though it would be nice to merge it with the other meaning eventually...

Aloha means "Hello, goodbye, love, compassion, welcome, good wishes." It means belonging to others with a common humanity. It's defined better as a feeling in the heart than by words.

Dx NSCLC adenocarcinoma IIIb Sep 2006, now stage IV. Taxol+Carboplatin+Avastin 4 mo., Avastin 8 mo., Tarceva 16 mo., Alimta 12 mo. (sometimes combined with Cisplatin or Carboplatin), Navelbine since Feb 2010, 10 sessions of WBR in March 2011. See My Cancer Journey: viewtopic.php?p=351369#p351369 — UPDATED 03/05/2011.

Above left: Our golden retriever Rosie, who joined the family on 3/5/08 at the playful age of 2.

Below: Hannah, our golden companion 1994-2007.

No, I did not change it, but thanks Ned

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Jan 09 husband diagnosed with stage 3 adenocarcinoma.
Oct 09 passed peacefully at home after enduring a very difficult battle. I miss him dearly.

Wasn't me!!

Promise.

I don't delete anything but adverts.

me neither !!! and other stuff not needed here!!

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April/03 My Wife Deborah, age 46, diagnosed adenocarcinoma NSCLC
1/20/2006 Admitted to hospital Respiratory distress
1/23/2006 Ran to the light and is waiting for us to be rejoined in the Kingdom Of Heaven Her journey is Over but mine lingers on for Now!!!
4/23/07 DEb is joined in Peace by her Puppy Dawg Daisy from Cancer
8/30/07 Got new Pup named Mocha!!

"No matter hnow much it hurts, No matter how alone you feel, Your friends will help you get through anything!!"
Scrubs!!!!Yes the comedy show!!!

The Reason I advocate
If you would like to see our family photos Click on this link!
http://deborah-wallin.memory-of.com/

My memory-of Link is good to go now if you want to see it!!

doesn't matter

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Jan 09 husband diagnosed with stage 3 adenocarcinoma.
Oct 09 passed peacefully at home after enduring a very difficult battle. I miss him dearly.

Hello Michelle:
I have been thinking of you this week and hoping that time has been okay for you. I do understand, I am still in grief and denial mode, but am hoping that you are dealing with it.
Jane

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Caregiver to husband. Original diagnosis in 9/91 was kidney cancer. Kidney and adrenal removed 11/91 and we thought we had it beat. Then diagnosed 11/07 with non-resectable Stage 3A (tumor in one lung and in mediastinal nodes), later presumed to change to 4,(spots found on second lung - too small for biopsy but presumed to be spread, and also spread to remaining adrenal gland and liver.) He started chemotherapy and concurrent radiation in 01/08; Stage IV with mets throughout abdomen in Jan 09. Left us April 30th, 09. Avatar is husband and I in Fall 08.

Cancer has decimated my family: lost my Grandpa in 1964 (lung), Mom (ovarian) in 1981, FIL (lung) in 1989, cousin (colon) in 2011, brother-in-law (lung) and son-in-law's father (leukemia) in 2012.

We need to beat this foul disease.

I'm trying to deal with it, but it seems nothing works. It will be one year on the 13th and still feels like yesterday ;(

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Jan 09 husband diagnosed with stage 3 adenocarcinoma.
Oct 09 passed peacefully at home after enduring a very difficult battle. I miss him dearly.

I wish i had the magic answer but like everyone else I don't Michelle. I do know that for the first year or so it was the worst specially the first year . Then I kind of went into an autopilot mode and if I did not think about it I did not really pay attention but Like the proverbial elephant in the room it is always there! It is not like I was trying to forget, but the time and everything else kind of washed away some of the pain but not the memory of that night! I can still tell you the details of debs passing but I really don't get emotional anymore, unkess I go to visit her grave and some days out of the blue I go there just to say hi to her and Daisy dawg! I had daisy's ashes spread over debs grave so they are together !! it takes a lot for the emotions to start up but not much for the memories after 4 and a half years if this helps you any!! Hugs and prayers and You know where to find me if You need anything !!!

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April/03 My Wife Deborah, age 46, diagnosed adenocarcinoma NSCLC
1/20/2006 Admitted to hospital Respiratory distress
1/23/2006 Ran to the light and is waiting for us to be rejoined in the Kingdom Of Heaven Her journey is Over but mine lingers on for Now!!!
4/23/07 DEb is joined in Peace by her Puppy Dawg Daisy from Cancer
8/30/07 Got new Pup named Mocha!!

"No matter hnow much it hurts, No matter how alone you feel, Your friends will help you get through anything!!"
Scrubs!!!!Yes the comedy show!!!

The Reason I advocate
If you would like to see our family photos Click on this link!
http://deborah-wallin.memory-of.com/

My memory-of Link is good to go now if you want to see it!!