I cannot find the words that would adequately describe my feelings when I heard of Stephanies passing.One might say,that this was not to be unexpected,given her medical prognosis,as her cancer had developed in her liver,I suppose naively,I was hoping to meet her again at the Hope Summit again on WashingtonDC in May .
I treasure that brief moment in time,when I put my arm around her,to have our picture taken,to hold her,never thinking that we both shared a lung cancer diagnosis,that we could still share unlimited time together.Alas,never thinking that this, would be the last day we would have together.As KatieB described,I spent most of my time chatting with her male friends,who shared with my common interest in the architectural world,now wishing instead I had spent my limited time with Stephanie.
Who was this Stephanie person I had come to know and love?,I suppose such feelings would be developed after years of sharing her company?,that was not the case,I could only claim to have have known her through posting in LCSC,over the last two years or so.What was so special about Stephanie?,well I suppose unlike me,she had no history of smoking,and yet she accepted her diagnosis with a resignation I find totally amazing,her courage and humour in living with lung cancer just amazes me,to think of all the feedback she received from her medical team from her dx in in 2008 until recently,which,co-incidentally,was when I was dxd,she accepted gracefully.
Since my dx on Oct 2008,unlike many others here in LCSC,having completed my treatments in Jan 2009, ,I accept that lung cancer can be such a pernicious cancer that it may revisit me,sometime in the future,please may God allow me to be so courageous and stoic as Stephanie was in facing this trial.
To read my story, please follow the link : http://lungevity.org/l_community/viewtopic.php?t=43268